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– So, is this it?

– I suppose so, why?

– Nothing, really.

– It’s about time, no? They’re all gone now.

– Probably. Cheers.

– Right, yeah.

 

 

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I mean, I always thought that the music of a thousand instruments, no matter how much out of tune, would make me assemble a sonnet, inevitably.

It’s a little puzzling to discover that it never does and that the fault most likely lies in my own algorithm.

At some point you give up, you owe it to yourself to give up, you have to, right?

Right?

 

 

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No, Wait https://ze.fontainhas.com/no-wait/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/no-wait/#respond Tue, 18 Oct 2016 23:57:36 +0000 https://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10779  

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"Ribamar Study" by Mia Fontainhas & Vítor Neto, 2016

“Ribamar Study” by Mia Fontainhas & Vítor Neto, 2016

 

No, no, no, no, you misunderstand.

I have no idea of what’s going on, none. That you should think I have, even if barely, says more about about you than it does about me.

My only “choice” was to not have one, to let go.

So I did.

 

 

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The Fever of My Own https://ze.fontainhas.com/the-fever-of-my-own/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/the-fever-of-my-own/#respond Wed, 12 Oct 2016 21:14:21 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10758 img_20161002_163001

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There was a time, I think, when I’d sacrifice everything for raising my body temperature by so little as a single celsius degree, were it just to be raised by holding your naked skin.

But I don’t know anymore.

I have of course been repeatedly reminded of my blatant selfishness as if somehow I was unaware of it; I wasn’t, the selfishness is implied, inevitable.

What no one ever told me, what I never considered, is the possibility of there being no fever of my own to return. Not by choice, but rather by design.

Don’t look at me, I’m not your kind.

 

 

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Who I Am Not https://ze.fontainhas.com/who-i-am-not/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/who-i-am-not/#respond Sun, 04 Sep 2016 00:45:01 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10695 IMG_20160821_200953

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This is the new fucking normal, isn’t it just?

All the little silent betrayals which you catalogue as inconsequential because you’ve managed to navigate around mentioning them. Little do you realize that the reason they’re so easily discarded is because you’re not actually betraying anything: even the slightest hint of something laudable enough to betray would make them impossible to circumvent.

I needn’t play along, do I?

I remember these exact words: “None of this is who you are nor is it who you are not.”

 

 

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The Immorality of Sloth https://ze.fontainhas.com/the-immorality-of-sloth/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/the-immorality-of-sloth/#respond Sat, 20 Aug 2016 20:43:06 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10659 IMG_20160723_182445

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It doesn’t really matter whether you’re first rate, second rate, or third rate, but it’s of vital importance that the water finds its own level and that you do the very best you can with the powers that are given you. It’s idle to strive for things out of your reach, just as it’s utterly immoral to be slothful about the qualities you have. You see, I’m not fundamentally interested in the artist. I use him to try to become a happy man, which is a good deal harder for me. I find art easy. I find life difficult.

Lawrence Durrell — Paris Review interview

 

 

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To Not Think at All https://ze.fontainhas.com/to-not-think-at-all/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/to-not-think-at-all/#respond Wed, 03 Aug 2016 13:26:59 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10625 IMG_20160803_140312

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“The martini felt cool and clean […] I had never tasted anything so cool and clean. They made me feel civilized. I had had too much red wine, bread, cheese, bad coffee, and grappa. I sat on the high stool before the pleasant mahogany, the brass, and the mirrors and did not think at all.”

Ernest Hemingway — A Farewell to Arms

 

 

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Keine Ahnung https://ze.fontainhas.com/keine-ahnung/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/keine-ahnung/#respond Mon, 25 Jul 2016 11:15:51 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10602 keine_ahnung

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Noch jede Frau, die er umarmt hatte, fühlte sich geliebt; jede aber, die er wirklich zu lieben begann, sagte ihm früher oder später, daß er, wie alle Männer, von Liebe keine Ahnung habe.

Max Frisch — Mein Name sei Gantenbein

 

 

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Infinites https://ze.fontainhas.com/infinites/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/infinites/#respond Fri, 22 Jul 2016 00:40:31 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10589 room

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Listen, listen:

Do you sometimes wonder if it could very well be that inner boundaries don’t change as often as we think, that there’s a possibility of purity in unstudied declarations?

As if not knowing where we’re running to was the only way to establish glorious, infinite epiphanies.

You know, just running on.

 

 

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So What https://ze.fontainhas.com/so-what/ https://ze.fontainhas.com/so-what/#respond Tue, 12 Jul 2016 02:24:41 +0000 http://ze.fontainhas.com/?p=10566 IMG_20141130_124909

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I think I get it or at least parts of it: it’s mostly about the territory and not necessarily a genuine yearning.

This is all not to say that it isn’t legitimate, it absolutely is.

I just wish it were simpler however unlikely and (maybe) painful that sounds.

Someday, who knows.

 

 

 

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